PANIC ATTACK! 30 days?! Where am I going to get so much writing material? What was I thinking?
After adequate self-reflection and meaningful conversation with friends, I say to myself:
Calm down. The answer is simple. The past. There’s plenty of that. Plus I need to review it.
Solution #1: Draw from the well of the past
First of all, I have a lot going on right now and making sense of it is an arduous endeavour. There are my ambitious pursuits, moving back to Rasht, to go or not to go abroad and much more. I could write about them, but they’re ongoing and incomplete. The past has already happened. But is it finished?
No. There are parts of the past that are unprocessed. We might not be able to change the events, but we still have the power to tweak our understanding of them. It’s a good time to straighten out some mental tangles I have left from before. It’ll make way for positive change.
There’s another side to it which is nicely encapsulated in this quote:
I have a wealth of experience. What good is it if I don’t tap into the knowledge I’ve acquired over the years? As well as avoiding pitfalls, I can go down paths I haven’t tried before. Maybe my success lies in the new or the unknown.
The last major advantage I can think of is preserving my memories. I always imagined how my life’s story would look like and that’s helped me get through some tough times. Whenever I did something crazy (by my own standards or others) I’d get thrills for observing it from a third-person view. Now’s the time to save those memories and start transcribing the amazing tales. Let’s see if it really is as interesting as i thought it would be.
Hopefully this stroll down memory lane will give me the strength and insight to grow. I’m not a nostalgic person, but friends tell me by reliving some memories they feel empowered. Is that anyone else’s source of power? I’m curious.